We’re healing everyday.

I’m at a point in my life where reflection and deep introspection are taking over. It isn’t all bad but damn it ain’t all fun either. Constantly replaying past situations in my head thinking about what i could’ve, should’ve, would’ve done if i could go back in time but i can’t. Although the past is the past, it can still leave such an effect on you. Trauma carries through and shows up in ways that you may least expect it to. Even though it isn’t your fault what you went through, it’s your responsibility to take care of you and your mental… I want to be the best i can be but sometimes find myself lost about who i was and even who i am now. It’s an uncomfortable stage of healing where you aren’t your past self but you aren’t fully back together yet either. Healing is one hell of a journey, but something i have to keep reminding myself is that it isn’t linear. Some days you can feel on top of the world, some days you could feel sunk back down into depression, and other days you’re just there. It’s all about being present with yourself through it all. Taking accountability and control over your life; accepting all that comes with open arms, an open heart, and an open mind.